Words

I avoid situations because I’m a coward. “Everything’s in control, my heart is throbbing.” ” Fights, boy why am I still alive?” I don’t know maybe it’s my mind, maybe we all are just our minds. I know I’ve started to sound absurd by now but I think I’m  a coward because I’ve got nothing to say in my defense even if I have a strong case. The reason being my tongue. I’ve been hearing and observing since childhood what words out of your mouth do to a person they’ve been pointed at.

They change everything; they can inspire you, dispirit you and hurt you like hell. But can you take them back?

This fear is one of the reasons behind my silence. I found my silence in my mother’s womb. I’ve always wondered if this world is a right place for me and after thinking and thinking I leave it to God because HE knows why I am here. I’m just a teeny part of his puzzle but this struggle, nerve wrecking anxiety and being myself makes me fall in love with death all over again.

© Soiba

Photo: Andraz Lazic

17 Comments Add yours

  1. magarisa says:

    I hear you, Soiba. Words are powerful indeed, and cannot be taken back after they have been said.

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    1. soiba says:

      That is true Mags, thank you for encouragement ❤

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      1. magarisa says:

        You’re welcome, Soiba. ❤

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  2. You reached right into me and pulled this out dear friend. Sending you much love, and if you need anything, I am here 🙂 Praying we feel the Love that God has for us.

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    1. soiba says:

      Thank you dear Margaret for your lovely comments ❤
      My prayers are with you too, much love xx

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  3. Mr. Mel says:

    Well written piece. We all experience fear but I have discovered that unconditional love will always overcome fear.🙏♥️

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    1. soiba says:

      I think that is true provided we take care of that unconditional love. Thank you for a wonderful comment 🙂

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  4. Nice to read your words again.
    With such words, we overcome 💛

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    1. soiba says:

      As long as the words don’t stop. Thank you David for your comment, stay happy 🙂

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  5. Muntazir says:

    That picture you chose, says a lot about you. May Allah bless you with love and happiness in here and the hereafter. Āmīn.

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    1. soiba says:

      Aameen. Thank you Muntazir for such a beautiful comment, stay blessed 🙂

      Like

  6. Absolutely soiba. Words can make you or break you. That’s why we need to choose them wisely.

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  7. You belong here, My Dear!! We need to hear your voice and the perspective and inspiration that is only from YOU!!
    Love and Hugs,
    Chuck

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    1. soiba says:

      Thank you dear Chuck, it was so very nice to hear from you ❤
      Love and blessings to you xx

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      1. I have missed you!! WP messed up my followers so I haven’t gotten any of your posts! Glad to reconnect with you, My Dear!!
        xoxo 💖🌹🌹

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