Rotten

Dissuaded by my very own

The one whom I called my home,

 

I struggle with anxiety

and panic attacks

Ah you’d never cut me a slack,

 

These are your offerings to me

Dear lord,

When would you set me free?

 

Deadness won’t come easy this time

Alas you’ve screwed me big-time!

 

Despite being prepared for the worst

Each episode feels like the first,

 

Hope does fade away with time

Just stopped thinking

What’s my crime…

 

© Soiba

Image: Pxhere

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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46 Comments Add yours

  1. ESP says:

    this seems so painful, and frustrating, hopefully it is just your poetic imagination at work.

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    1. soiba says:

      The lengths to which our imaginations may go…
      Thank you ESP 💙

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      1. ESP says:

        yes, it takes us on the paths we will have scruples to tread on. take care!

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  2. Novus Lectio says:

    Awwww! So sad.
    Can I help?

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    1. soiba says:

      You being here for me is the greatest help I can get ❤
      Thank you for sticking by me sister, stay blessed xx

      Like

  3. dronstadblog says:

    Right in the feels. Ough, that was tough. Love the sense for rhyme. 😀

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    1. soiba says:

      Thanks Commander, the gloomy days just started!

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  4. Painful….. Please be all right Soiba didi…. It’ll be fine…

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    1. soiba says:

      Thank you so much for your love and continuous support dear little sister, I’ll be fine ❤
      Much love xx

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      1. I hope so too ❤❤❤❤

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  5. Jokerswild says:

    It can’t rain all the time lovely and there is a rainbow after every storm. You are as strong as you are beautiful and even though we reach a point of giving up, He doesn’t give up on us. Stay positive and be blessed lovely.🌹🌹

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    1. soiba says:

      Yes I agree with you as He never gives up actually that’s the mere hope, it revitalizes us again and the storm stops eventually.
      Thank you for your love, blessings to you too xx

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      1. Jokerswild says:

        So very true lovely, the storm does subside.
        You always have my support and thank you for yours. Much love and blessings 🌹🌹

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  6. May peace overwhelm the darkness.

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    1. soiba says:

      Aameen, thank you for your love and support 💙

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  7. ivor20 says:

    There’s dark, then light
    Like there’s day and night
    Sunrise and sunset
    Like there’s life and regrets
    Life ebbs and flows
    Life comes and goes
    There’s reality, then dreams
    Life’s a mixture of honey and cream
    Sticky and sweet
    Live every heart-beat

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    1. soiba says:

      Wow this just became a new hymn for me and it soothes me dearest Ivor, Love to you xx

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      1. ivor20 says:

        My pleasure dearest Soiba, I wrote the words for you just then….. ((hugs)) .. I hope you are keeping well.

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      2. soiba says:

        Yes I am, now!
        May peace and blessings be upon you ((hugs))

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      3. ivor20 says:

        That’s lovely to hear Soida, stay safe my friend.

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    1. soiba says:

      I will dear Kurian, thank you 🙂

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      1. Kurian says:

        All the best Soiba. Thank you for being a good friend

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    1. soiba says:

      Thank you Nirant for visiting and liking, stay happy 🙂

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      1. Nirant Gurav says:

        Pleasure always for beautiful stuff dear !!

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  8. magarisa says:

    Such anguish in this piece. Hope you are okay.

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    1. soiba says:

      Trying to be 🙂
      Thank you Mags xx

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      1. magarisa says:

        You’re welcome. 🙂

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  9. This is a deeply real experience …I recognize how it comes like waves. I wish you most ease and joy available! It does change, take care.

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    1. soiba says:

      I agree and it would change.
      Thank you dear for your continuous support and love 🙂
      I wish you happiness, stay blessed xx

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      1. You are very welcome 🙂

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  10. iScriblr says:

    Take care Soiba! #healingPrayers❤

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    1. soiba says:

      Thank you Richa, stay blessed ❤

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  11. AQUIB says:

    Oye soiba jee. Kya haal?

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    1. soiba says:

      Alhamdulillah fine Aquib jee aapki dua ha

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      1. AQUIB says:

        Saddy sad likh diya boss.

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      2. soiba says:

        Yay tw ha, happens at times 😛

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      3. AQUIB says:

        😊😊, stay blessed happy.

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  12. Tatjana says:

    You are blessed with being able to verbalise your pain. And pain is always a catalyst for something greater. I believe you can do it, no matter how hard it seems right now.

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    1. soiba says:

      And I believe that too. Thank you for your kind and supportive words dear, stay happy and blessed

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  13. Wishing you all the best. Hugs

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